Week two of working out

So the gym sucks lol

I got sick yesterday so I skipped going yesterday and today. But still I will keep it up. Even though it sucks. I think the hardest part is cardio. It's very hard for me to push my self with cardio. It's much easier to do so with weights. How much easier is it to tell yourself "one more push" then it is to think "just 5 more minutes". At least I find it easier.
Tiffany and I have been looking up workout online. There are more workouts then I could imagine. And for every workout there is another person saying stating that workout is bad for you. I tried having my free session with a trainer but I talked to much. Gabby gabby me. I didn't learn much but I think I'm ok on my own. At least for now. I'm not discouraged. I lost some more lbs so I'm gonna keep at it for now. Once I reach that barrier I will ask for a trainer. Or maybe by then KK will be back from her mission and she can become my trainer :)

Hello Again

Hi,
It's been a while since I've posted anything. I think I was intimidated because my weight loss has been slow. However over the last months I have lost a total 30 lbs. Pretty cool. I see myself everyday so truthfully it's just a number. I don't feel any different and really I don't think I look any different. But knowing that I have lost 30 lbs makes me want to keep going.
Tiffany is pretty inspirational. Last time she got into the gym she lost 40 lbs! So together we joined.....24 HOUR FITNESS. AHHHHHHHH a gym!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate getting sweaty and hot and blah!!! It isn't even the working part that bothers me. I don't mind working I just hate hot. But I was convinced because there is a (drum roll)............. a POOL!!!!!! I love water. I love pools so it was the big sales pitch. In fact today I went to aqua aerobics. My first time to the gym and I went without my gym partner lol. Tiffany's little boy isn't feeling to well. It was fun. I don't know how much of a work out it actually was though. I guess we will see how I'm feeling tomorrow.
I get one free trainer session and I still need to make the appointment and I hope it's a lot better then my experience with Bally's which really was blah.
I've decided I need a goal. Everyone needs a goal in life right lol. When thinking about what it should be it became clear that I shouldn't use a number. Numbers don't really reflect health. So my goal is to become a rock climber. I loved climbing trees and rocks when I was a kid. There is a rock climbing studio near my house and I always look at it and think "that would be awesome". So my goal is to get into shape enough to go rock climbing :) I'd also like to ride my bike to work but that's another goal I think is farther away then rock climbing lol. Anyway I'm back and that's the update so yeah. lol

Week 5

I don't think I should have a scale in my house. I'm tempted all the time to weigh myself. But that's not a good idea because your weight fluctuates day to day. So this is the head ache I've had this week. Weds I weighted myself and I lost 5 lbs :) Thursday I weighted myself and I gained 3 lbs, Yesterday I weighed myself and I gained 4 more lbs! This morning I was at a net loss of 2 lbs. I'm taking it and I'm not weight myself again until next week. My sister suggested weighing myself every two weeks.
It's slow going. I wish it were faster. Now I'm not going to go out and cutting my calories to 1000 a day or binge in cupcakes and ice cream....ummmm cupcakes. I know it's going to take a long time to get where I want. Adding exercise would speed it up but I was really hoping to not have to add that in so soon. It's not that I don't like exercise. There is nothing like a great work out it's just....blah. I'm feeling lazy about it. Working 5 days a week and only having 2 days off to chill out begins to get tiring. I don't feel like working out after working 8 hours and an hour bus ride. But damn it I think I might be leaning into that direction.
Well if I have to start working out I want to swim. I like swimming. That means gym membership.... Spending money!!!!! Damn it again! Blah maybe I should just cut down to 1000 cal a day :)
Day by day right

Random thought

The snack of the day is Roasted Garlic Hummus, Peta Chips, and Baby Carrots. YUMMY. I've never had hummus before and oh my goodness that stuff is awesome.
My sister wants me to cut down on my calorie intake by 200 calories a day. Perhaps alternate back and forth over the weeks. I know this last week I didn't lose anything but it's was just one week that included hanging out with my sister, a friend's birthday, and watching my niece and nephew. All instances where I didn't really eat the right things. This week though I've been very good and back on track. I don't think I will knock it out of the park but I think I will loose a little bit at least.
Anywho Hummus is tasty and I'm going to keep this short.

Week four

So I just past the first month mark... I didn't really lose much weight this last week. I maintained my loss so I guess that a positive. This last week was pretty tough. My sister came down to visit which meant that the food choices weren't the healthiest although I'm sure both her and my husband can attest to my self control. I did my best to not go overboard on the calorie count. I know that counting calories isn't the only thing to watch out for. A single slice of pizza may only be 350 calories but how much fat or sodium is going to be in that slice?
I'm not discouraged though I'm actually proud of myself for trying and not throwing my hands up in frustration. 10 lbs in a month is still an achievement. This time next month I could be at 20 lbs and wouldn't that be awesome. Counting calories isn't the hard bit. The hard part is spending time with people with food around. Going out with friends or family to eat. But I can't stop having a social life because it's easier to count my portions at home.
I remember the second day after I decided to start this counting thing I went with my husband to the mall. I love the mall. I love to shop. But it's not just that, I love to window shop. For a while we have been going to the mall and just walking around for an hour or so. Using the mall as our own personal track. I can't remember what exactly we were there for but I know we got hungry and that lead us to the food court....THE MALL FOOD COURT!!! Day two and I was already testing my self control. Looking around I began to have a desire for tacos. One taco time taco is 218 cal... Knowing that I really only felt ok with eating two.... TWO tacos. Now like I said I was hungry. Two tacos wasn't going to put a dent in my tummy. Still it was what I wanted. Looking around again I saw subway. A 6 in turkey sub with cheese but dry was 350 cal. Paired with a large cup of water I knew I had met my match. I opted for the sandwich. I still would have loved those tacos but I weighed my options and it just wasn't the right choice.... ummmmm..... now I want a taco.

Three weeks

About three weeks ago I began to seriously take a look at my health. I'm 26 years old and I weigh 265 lbs. If I look back on my weight I can see the roller coaster of loss and gain. The lowest I can remember weighing is 170 lbs back in 2002 but it's been a slow increase over the years. Like so many I've tried crash diets and exercise but nothing's stuck. I come from a plus size family with a few exceptions. My younger sister is one of those such exceptions. Since she was 10 she has been concerned about her weight and health. She admitted to me that she feared becoming like the rest of our family. At the time I felt she was a bit to extreme. I mean working out 4-6 hours a day didn't seem like the answer to me either. As she has gotten older though I think she has matured quite with her views. Now she is a certified personal trainer.
Three weeks ago I was talking to her on the phone. You know, one of those two and a half hour conversations about a number of important things. As usual we began to discuss my health and her concern for me. She started the topic smoothly but telling me that she looked up to my strength and determination in all things. However she just didn't understand how my will always faltered when it came to my own health. How could I neglect it so? Was is just a complete lack of motivation? How could she help me?
Those are valid questions. I often think about such things at night, when I'm relaxing in bed letting the day roll across my mind. How can I improve my life? What in the whole list of tasks to do needs the most attention? My health often is on that list but really between work and home how much time can I truly dedicate to the gym let alone money.
It dawned on her that maybe exercise needed to be a smaller step for me. Perhaps we needed to look closer at what I was eating first. That's when Weight Watchers became a suggestion. As she began to explain what they do to me I told her that I had just down loaded an app for my phone that counts calories and was supper easy to use. Though admittedly I hadn't used it much. She determined that 1600 calories a day should safely decrease my weight to about a loss of 10 lbs a month. Now I know that doesn't sound like much and in truth I think that's a factor for many of us. We all want to look perfect right now. We want quick results for hard work. But that's simply irrational. Sure you can starve yourself or live at the gym, and workout like a madman, but that's not going to last. Besides; your just going to damage your body and maintain old behaviors.
So 1600 calories a day with the instruction to eat a few hundred calories every few hours and keep the motor burning. She told me that we wouldn't focus at first on what I was eating so much then how much I was eating. That didn't sound to difficult. I mean the hardest part is just keeping track.
After these three weeks I've lost 10 lbs, six of which occurred in the first week. I'm going to keep going day by day, and we will see wont we.